I posted this on my social media sites yesterday and I have been blow away by the sweet messages and words of encouragement. A few of you have messaged me privately about your own journey and or doubts.
I want you to know that you are not alone....
Because it is hard and you may need to reach out privately. This is for you.....
I have been distracted. I have looked away from something that has been calling to me for years. It is time to listen to my intuition, to emerge, so to speak.
Several years ago, 10 to be exact, I experienced a deep, painful, life changing faith crisis. I was raised Mormon and lived a great life as a Mormon. I was on the perfect path. I checked all the Mormon life journey boxes and I was well on my way to the celestial kingdom.
But around 2002/3 I had a nagging, something inside me started to question everything I had been taught. I started to get scared. I pushed those feelings down for years until about 2006. One day, I gave myself permission to follow my intuition and explore my doubts. I started studying. I read and read and cried and cried as I learned what I had been taught all my life was not quite what I thought it was. I remember wanting to die. I wanted the earth to swallow me up. I started to see that my life was going to change drastically.
How could I go on when EVERYONE around me was a member of the church, my husband, mom, siblings, all my friends. I felt alone and I was in huge despair.
For a few years I kept most of my new discoveries inside & quiet. When I tried to talk about my feelings and questions and new discoveries I was given answers like...pray harder, read your scriptures, have more faith it will all work itself out in the next life. I was told I was being deceived by satan.
I prayed harder. I pleaded with god to let me go back to my old ways of thinking, it would be easier. I couldn't do that. I was having an awakening and there was no going back.
I have lived through it. And now I am here to help others navigate those scary painful days, no matter the faith or religion. You will survive this pain. You will emerge stronger for walking this path of uncertainty.
My Soul Candy stones came from a place of my own personal healing. They are precious to me. I will still be creating my stones and selling them, just no more "sales." (or very few) Just know they come from a deep place of healing. I hope they serve you as healing reminders. You know where to find them and me. Time to emerge and help others navigate this scary path.
I feel so much clarity about my mission in life, at this time. It is my desire to gather those of us who have felt this pain and share our stories and share our life after a faith crisis triumph.
You are loved and you are not alone,