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My Faith Crisis & My Why

You Are Amazing! Soar My Dear.

 

Post Mormon. Exmormon. Ex religious. Life After Religion. Faith Crisis. Yes? I get it.

When I was hit upside the head with own personal faith crisis, I felt so alone.

I didn't know who I could talk to about my doubts. I was scared.

I started with my bishop and he told me that the doubts I was having were from satan. I left his office feeling even more boggled than when I walked in.

Satan? Really? Ugg. 

Yeah, this was not going to end well.

At this point, it was probably 2003/4 and I hadn't even started my deep dive into mormon history at this point, I just had "doubts."

2006 is when I jumped off the high dive, ALL IN.

There was no CES Letter at the time. I just started reading everything and anything I could get my hands on. I was on a mission to learn all I could about the church. I mean, it was true and so nothing that I read could really prove otherwise.

LOLOLOLOL (insert the BIGGEST eye roll here)

Yeah, you know what I mean.

I remember feeling more alone than I ever had before. I felt like an alien in my own home, my church, family, extended family, and with my friends.

I felt like people dismissed me, brushed off my thoughts and feelings and didn't take me as seriously. I felt marginalized when I did bring up what I was discovering and I would be told to pray harder, obey more, just have faith, and all these questions would be answered in the next life. yada yada yada.

No, that was NOT going to cut it.

I wanted to be taken seriously. I was being serious and my questions could not be answered.

No, I didn't want to go sin and drink and have sex and be wild. I was perfecting fine keeping all the commandments, covenants, life choices I made, all that I had been taught, if it was true. I was on a truth hunting mission. I wanted to know if the church was true. I was way beyond needing to read my scriptures more, pray more, have more faith. I had done that for 36 years.

Does this all sound familiar?

The whole reason I do what I do is that you know you are not alone.

I have walked this road, I felt all the pain. I know it is real and I will never marginalize you, make you feel crazy or dismiss anything you are feeling as you walk this path.

You are opening a door to the unknown and walking through it EVEN THO you are scared as hell.

You are not alone.

You are not crazy.

You ARE smart.

You ARE brave.

You ARE beyond amazing.

I am thankful our paths have crossed. When we meet, I know that we understand each other. 

I love when you ask if I am Soul Searching Girl (a reference to my early youtube videos.) We immediately understand each other. Our connection is real. We "get" each other.

I know you straight away and I love you.

Stand tall my dear. You have done nothing wrong. You have nothing to be ashamed of. You are following your own intuition. You are trusting yourself. You are one of the bravest people I know.

Thank you for showing up in my life.

Together, we got this.

I can't wait to walk this journey with you. Guide you for a few steps along the way.

I am always here.

Amy 

amyloganlife@gmail.com

Your Future Self & Your Faith Crisis

Your Future Self & Your Faith Crisis

 

You have been at this faith crisis thing for awhile now. You have learned so many things, about yourself, about the church and religion at large.

You have wept many tears.

You have changed your world view.

You have gained a new beautiful inner strength. (even if you don't feel it all the time)

You have leaned into your new voice.

You are becoming your most authentic self.

It is suddenly a year from today, November 10th, 2019.

What would you say to to your future self? 

What advice would you give her? What would you say to the you of today?

What would a person who has already figured how to navigate this path you are on right now, tell you to do? 

Write it down. Talk to yourself in real time. What would you tell her?

Now, really, do this. Not in your head. Open up your journal, or a new blank file on your computer and write it all out. Get it out so you can see it. 

Then, tell me about it. What came up for you? I would love to hear it.

Amy

amyloganlife@gmail.com

 

Ready To Not Be So Triggered? Triggers & Your Faith Crisis

Triggers.

Seems like everyone is triggered these days. Yeah?

You will most likely get to a point, along your faith crisis journey, where you are tired of being triggered all the time.

This is where your faith crisis transitions over to whatever you want it to be, sans the crisis part.

I work with my clients on this very topic. It is common. Just like anything else in life, we have to find ways to move forward, so we are not feeling triggered all the time.

This is very freeing!

When you are ready, shoot me an email and we can work together.

amyloganlife@gmail.com

More soon!

Amy xo

Your Awakening & Puzzle

Puzzle, the movie & Faith Crisis

I have homework for you. Go see Puzzle.

{{{Yes, once a teacher, always a teacher.}}} 

If you have gone through a faith crisis, going through one now or even a bit of a life crisis, please go see the movie Puzzle, with Kelly MacDonald, Iffran Khan, David Denman

You will relate to the main character, Agnes. She has spent her entire life caring for others and living a very quiet life. I think she would even say, very sheltered, bubble like.

She experiences a beautiful awakening, very similar to a faith crisis, transition.

I want you to see this movie through the lens of your experiences.

You will relate to all the feelings Agnes goes through as she realizes there is more to her, her life, and this great big beautiful world.

There is so much more I could say about this movie but I want you to draw your own conclusions. I don't even like to read reviews before I see a movie that I am interested in. I love forming my own opinions before I am influenced by others.

I want you to see her thought process. You will see her experience a range of emotions and feelings that will bust you right open. Watch her thought process with curiosity. 

I know what you have gone through with your own faith crisis, how tender your heart is and therefore you will completely want to talk with Agnes. 

You will not hear my saying this often, because I do not make a practice of telling others what to do, but take my advice, go see this movie. I know it will speak to your soul in a beautiful way.

Much love my dear,

Amy

amyloganlife@gmail.com

Have You Ever Challenged Your Beliefs?

Faith Crisis Life Coach

My younger self. I am probably a little younger in this photo than the me in the story I am going to share.

I have a story to tell. Stay with me, it really does come back around to you and possibly your faith crisis.

When I was in elementary school, probably around 3rd grade, I had a teacher who threatened to take me to the principal if my handwriting did not improve.

I could not have imagined anything more scary, at the time. THE PRINCIPAL'S OFFICE was for the bad kids right? I mean he even had a spanking paddle on the wall. (memory?, that part is foggy)

I was a quiet child, a good girl, rule keeper, always afraid of doing something wrong and so being told I was going to the principals office because my handwriting was sloppy really scared me! Totally scared me.

I mean, seriously, getting told you were going to the principal's office was THE MOST SCARY thing I could imagine in school. Needless to say, I was terrified.

I remember sitting in our big red chair each night working on my handwriting, endlessly, I tried so hard. I practiced (in cursive of course) writing the alphabet, copying sentences out of books, working so hard to improve my writing. I took this task very seriously because.....the principal's office!!!!!!!!!

I must have done a good enough job because I was never sent to the principal's office. phewwww, crisis avoided.

But, all throughout my school years, and even into my adult life, I would hide my writing if people were around. I would literally cover the words as I wrote them with my hand. I didn't want anyone to see my handwriting. I was embarrassed. 

So, for most of my life, I just assumed that I had terrible handwriting. It was just a fact, right? Mrs. XXXXXX said so.

Fast forward to college years, I graduated with a degree in secondary education. Early in my professional career, I taught hundreds and hundreds of high school students which meant I wrote on a chalkboard everyday. I was so scared someone was going to call out my "bad" handwriting and ultimately I could be sent to the principal's office, again! And of course, lose my job. (eyeroll)

Fast forward to 2000, I started my own Ceramic Hand & Footprint business. On each keepsake I created for my customers was my handwriting. I pushed little hands and feet in clay, inscribed names, birthdates, birth weights, etc. on each clay plate. Time and time again, people would ask me if the writing on the plates were stamps because the writing was so pretty. In my mind I was thinking, they must just be trying to be nice, because you know I have bad handwriting.

{{{*sidenote, I did have stamps as an option for my clients but 85% of the time my customers chose my free form handwriting.}}}

It wasn't until several years into my business that I re evaluated my opinion of my own handwriting. Hmmm, maybe I didn't have bad handwriting? How can that be true?

Someone else's thoughts about the "ugliness" of my handwriting still plays a roll in my mind every time someone is watching me write. It does not matter if I am writing a check (although, who does that anymore?) or signing a note or writing on the chalk board.

Anyway, my point is, someone put a thought in my head when I was a little girl and I carried (sometimes still carry) that thought around.

Someone else's thought has stayed with me my whole life EVEN though I have I proof to the contrary.

So, let's think about this. Our thoughts/beliefs are so ingrained in us, about everything.

Do you even examine your deepest thoughts/beliefs? Like, really and truly, the big stuff. I know my story of my handwriting may seem silly, but it was real for me.

Something you may have believed your whole life may not be true.

WHA???

Can you imagine? Yes, I know you can because you are experiencing this right now with your faith crisis.

What is a thought that someone else has put in your head that you still carry around? It could be anything really? We often just accept that as fact.

We are conditioned in so many ways in this life. So much so that often times we do not stop to question the thought or belief.

Is it true that I had crappy handwriting as a kid? Maybe. But the fear of going to the principal scared me so bad that I attached a thought to my handwriting that haunts me to this day.

So think of something that has happened to you. Something someone has said to you about you. What beliefs have you created because if it? Are they true? What have you made that thing mean about you?

If you have experienced or are experiencing a faith crisis, you know what I am talking about. Thoughts (beliefs) have been put in your head by someone else and then reconfirmed time and time again by tribe. One day, something happens, that makes you question everything.

It is the most amazing process.

I would love to hear a thought that you have believed about yourself, because someone else said it and you just believed it to be true.

What do you want to believe about yourself? Take it to that place. Play with the idea of the power of beliefs. You can believe anything you want. What do you chose?

Amy

amyloganlife@gmail.com

The Gift of Travel and a Faith Crisis

Travel. It may bust your faith crisis wide open!

But, don't worry. That is a good thing.

I feel it is so important to get out and see the world. See things different than you have experienced. See different people. Taste different foods. See art that is new. Listen to music that you are not used to. Breath in the air from the other side of the world.

Now, you can actually do this without traveling too far away from where you live, but getting out and away is what I always recommend.

Exploring all that I mentioned above opens your eyes, your world view.

It gets you thinking outside of the world you have been raised in.

For me, that was really important.

I know you can do this and not have a faith crisis. But, if you have lived a sheltered life, it can open something up in you that you didn't know was wanting to come alive.

I talk more about it in this video I shot in NYC. Traveling, of course.

 Now, if you happen to have a full blow faith crisis while traveling or shortly there after, take a deep breath and know it will all be okay.

Your world just got bigger!

More later,

Amy xo

 

Trusting Yourself After A Faith Crisis

One of the things I talk about with my clients after their Faith Crisis, is learning to trust yourself again.

Thoughts about feeling betrayed and how did this happen, are pretty common.

You may be a little gun shine because you feel like you truly trusted and believed so strongly the church/religion/gospel you have been living, and now it is not.

So how will you know what is true or false?

But, guess what?! This is great news. You know why?

The blinders are off. What you once believed with all your heart, is no longer true. Now everything else you approach, you will look at with your eyes wide open. 

Right?! {{{ The answer better be yes my dear. }}}

Don't worry about not trusting yourself.

Be excited AND curious AND trust yourself. These feelings and emotions will keep you in check.

So, go forth and explore! 

When you can shift the need to know all the answers to not feeling like you have to know anything, life literally takes on a whole new experience.

Enjoy this process and know, you can trust yourself more than ever before. It really can be that simple.

Trusting yourself is just a thought anyway right? 

Choose to trust yourself. It is so much more fun than living in confusion. Truth is, you may mess up from time to time. Life is messy. That just means you are doing it right.

I love this thought work stuff!!! I am happy to walk it with you. Email me at anytime. amyloganlife@gmail.com

You got this!

Amy 

Faith Crisis ~ Are you open to the possibility?

Faith Crisis Life Coach

Are you open to the idea that your faith crisis is the best thing that has ever happened to you?

If someone would have asked me this question 12 years ago, I would have thought they were nuts.

I would have laughed in their face (through my tears of course.)

I could not see the forest through the trees at that time in my life.

Now, hindsight, I know this to be true.

It is so strange how something so life shattering could actually be something I am so thankful for. Truly.

If you are new to this paradigm shift, welcome to the other side. You made it. If you feel you are hanging by a thread, that is temporary, and you will be okay.

Welcome to your awakening. And when I say awakening, I truly mean that if you have walked through this door, you will never look at life the same way again.

What I love about it is you have lived through a new way to look at life.

This means you are open to diving into your brain a little more to see how things really work, right?

Well, if you are anything like me, you are.

My whole life coaching philosophy is built on this very premise.

Looking at how the thoughts running through your brain (and you have about 50,000-60,000 thoughts a day) effect your entire life, geeks me out! In a really good way.

Anxiety, stress, worry, confusion, overwhelm are just a few areas of your life that can feel amplified when you experience a faith crisis.

Learning to manage your mind, will help with all of these types of side effects.

Our brains are a miracle that you have total control over, once you learn the process.

When you are ready, let's do this life coaching thing.

I joke around with my friends and family, by saying "I can coach you through that."

It is funny AND true, but, the only caveat is, when YOU are ready.

Have a beautiful Friday!

Amy 

message me amyloganlife@gmail.com

Middle of a Mormon Faith Crisis? Now what?

Mormon Faith Crisis ~ Now What?

You have found yourself in the middle of a Mormon Faith Crisis. A place that you never even knew could happen to you.

You are sitting there on your couch, or bed, or kitchen table, you are looking around your house that used to feel perfect and right (for the most part). You just finished a big cry and now you are just sitting there looking and not quite sure what the future holds. You feel empty and void of all the emotions that just spilled out of you.

The house you are still staring at, blankly, represents all that you knew. All that you wanted for you family. All that you planned for. And now, you know that life is not going to be the same again.

There are conversations that have to happen.

There are feelings that have to be felt.

There are relationships that may change.

There are stories that now have different endings.

What are you going to do?

{{{Breathe.}}

Know that you will make it through.

You will stand on solid footing again, even if it may look completely different than it does in this moment.

How do I know this? Because I have been there. I have stared with new eyes, at everything I had created for my life and felt empty and scared.

Have things changed? 

Yes. 

Life is different than it used to be.

I really do believe that the experience of a Faith Crisis is wonderful and perfect, in all of it's imperfections.

Cry it out when you need to. Suck it up when you have to.

Get through it.

You will experience a wide variety of emotions.

Remember that emotions are just feelings and feelings will not kill you.

Let the feelings come and go, ebb and flow.

And then, when you are ready to no longer be in limbo. When you are ready to look at life as it falls around you. When you are ready to step into your new way of being, but you need a little help, a little nudge. Message me.

You will get through this and I am here to help.

You are just becoming who you were meant to be. It is perfectly unfolding.

Let it be messy for a time. It is all part of the rebuilding.

You are loved.

Amy xoxo

amyloganlife@gmail.com

Faith Crisis Life Coach ~ Ways to Work With Me ~ Ex Mormon
Okay my dear, I know you feel like your whole world just came crashing down on you. It feels heavy, scary, lonely.

I get it. 

I have been there, right where you are. Going through a Faith Crisis is one of the most confusing, painful experiences you have ever been through.

Feeling like you are the crazy one. Feeling like everyone is looking at you like you have lost your mind. Feeling scared to speak your mind. Feeling like you should just keep quiet to keep the peace.

You probably feel like you should hold it all in and just go through the motions of life, like it was before. Just pretend.

I did that for a long time too.

But you are probably tired of living that way. Tired of holding your tongue. Feeling like the new you is getting lost in the shuffle?

I am here to guide you through this process. 

I KNOW IT IS SCARY.

You are no longer the person you were. So how do you show up in the world now?

You can live in fear of the new you, or you can go find her! 

I have a HUGE tool box, filled with all sorts of ways to help you, right now, in this scary place you have found yourself.


My dear, you will be okay. You will survive this. I promise.

Please do not let yourself get lost in this shuffle. You are needed. Your new voice is needed in the lives of your children, your spouse, your friends.

It is time to become the new you. It is totally okay to emerge as a new person.

Because, if you have been walking this awakening of yours for any amount of time, you know you cannot go back to the old way of being.

I have seen beautiful changes happen in the lives of my clients. I am always so honored to be a part of the process. I know it takes courage to let someone in. 
I would love to work with you. I am waiting. Just reach out.

You are loved,

Amy
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